Need to slow down...the Battle is drawing near!

I'm not suppose to do this, my final exam is in 6 days! But still, i want to write, the irony is, my brain is clogged up with all this medical facts for the final exam, so i don't have much idea what to write! Hurm, lets see...

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Ilahi atas keputusan midterm-I yang baek, moga2 leh cover midterm-II yg agak sengal.

I need to do reflections on myself, wasted too many times even in this study leave, semoga Allah membantu diri ini dan rakan2 seperjuangan dalam memanfaatkan 6 hari yang tinggal dgn sebaiknya and the days between all the papers.

Diri ini perlu muhasabah, terlalu banyak dosa dlm jiwa ini, mana mungkin aku berharap pada bantuanNya dalam exam yg mendatang sedangkan jiwa ini penuh dgn titik2 hitam, teringat pada status YM muaz dulu, "o Allah, please forgive me when i whine." Teringat juga pada hadith Nabi s.a.w. yg diulang-ulang setiap Jumaat di Gami' Ibrahim, "Setiap anak adam itu bersalah, dan sebaik-baik pesalah adalah yang bertaubat." Moga2 aku dan kamu yg membaca tergolong dlm golongan sebaik-baik pesalah ini dan semoga taubat kita diterimaNya.

Sebelum lupa, ucapan tahniah buat sahabat, akhi Zaizul atas akad nikahnya hari ini, semoga bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat, maaf x dapat hadir ke majlis akad nikahmu, iAllah di walimah nnt jika tiada balak melintang.

I need to slow down on everything for this one crucial month except study i guess, which need to be sped up to the limit, may even need to break the limit.
Need to slow down on blogging.
Need to slow down on facebook.
Need to slow down on flickr.
Need to slow down on animes, movies, series.
Simply put, need to slow down on laptop and anything else that is unnecessary, haha!

I think i better end it here, need to get some breakfast and drown myself with all the medical textbooks. Buat yang tidak mengetahui, insyaAllah exam final sem aku 1-20/7/09. Jadi mohon jasa baik anda mendokan kejayaan aku dan sahabat2 seperjuangan dan semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan serta diperkuatkan ingatan. Especially for 3rd year students which wouldn't be allowed to carry any subject into the clinical years.

To all my fellow colleagues in Alexandria, semoga Allah mengurniakan kecemerlangan kepada kita semua serta memudahkan setiap urusan exam kali ini, mintak maaf kalau ada salah-silap. Lets strive for infinite excellence, do our best and never give up!
"Allahummaj'alna minan-najihiin, wal-faiziin, wal-mutafawwiqiin, was-solihiin, wal-muttaqiin, wal-muhsiniin, wal-mujahidiina fii sabiilik, Allahumma najjihna fi kulli imtihaaninaa fid-dunya wal-akhirah, Rabbanaa, yassir wala tu'assir." ameen ya Rabb!

Aku akhiri entry ni dgn nasyid Air Mata Keinsafan by The Zikr, spend some times listening to it sambil hayati liriknya yg amat menyentuh. Lebih baik insaf skrg daripada insaf bila nyawa dah nk kna tarik, pintu taubat dan hidayah Allah S.W.T. sentiasa terbuka luas. Paling penting, jangan sama sekali menangguhkan taubatmu dan jgn sama sekali berputus asa dgn keampunanNya.

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Air mata keinsafan
Yang mengalir di malam sepi
Inilah dia pelembut jiwa
Bagi mendapat kasih Ilahi

Rintihan di pertiga malam
Dari seorang hamba yang dhoif
Kerna mengenang segala dosa
Moga mendapat keampunan dari Ilahi

Setiap kekasih Allah
Menempuhi jalan ini
Untuk mereka memiliki kejayaan
Ayuh bersama kita susuli
Perjalanan kekasih Allah
Agar kita tiada rugi
Dalam meniti hidup ini

Deraian air mata ini
Titisan yang paling berharga
Buat menyimbah api neraka
Moga selamat di titian Sirat
Bahagia menuju syurga abadi

p/s: Aku tak sure sama ada blog ni akan di-update atau tidak sepanjang final exam ini, just wait and see.

Buat Bapak Tercinta

An update finally after a while. I was addicted to Flickr I must say, better slow down since the final exam is really around the corner!

Ok, sebenarnya nk menulis entry yang lebih panjang, tetapi hajatku terhalang sbb esok exam practical patho. Mungkin ada yang kata, dh tau exam, tulis apa lagi? I don't care, it's Father's Day after all! Malas nk tunggu esok after exam. I miss my dad and i want to dedicate this entry to him.

I would like to dedicate this song to my beloved father with the wish, Happy Father's Day! Thank you so much for everything you have done for me, for everything that you had and will teach me. You're the best dad in the world! Loving and missing you everyday!



ketika kejauhan
masihku hangat kasihmu ayah
betapaku rindukan redup wajahmu
hadir menemaniku

terbayang ketenangan
yang selalu kau pemerkan
bagaikan tiada keresahan

walau hatimu sering terluka
tika diriku terlanjur kata
tak pernah sekali kau tinggalkan
diriku sendirian

ketikaku dalam kedukaan
kau mendakap penuh pengertian
disaat diriku kehampaan
kau setia mengajarku
erti kekuatan

terpancar kebanggaan
dalam senyummu
melihatku berjaya
bilaku kegagalan
tak kau biarkan
aku terus kecewa
dengan kata azimat
engkau nyalakan semangat
restu dan doa kau iringkan

tak dapatku bayangkan
hidupku ayah
tanpa engkau disisi
semua kasih sayang
yang kau curahkan
tersemat dihati.....

Buat Bapak yang tercinta, jazakallahu khairan katheera for being such a wonderful Father to all of us, for being a wonderful Husband to Ibu, and for being a great King of our family! Terima kasih juga kerana sentiasa mengingatkan Abdullah agar istiqamah atas jalan dakwah dan tarbiyah. Jutaan kemaafan dipohon atas segala salah silap yang Abdullah pernah lakukan terhadap Bapak, dulu, kini dan akan datang. Semoga Bapak sentiasa di bawah jagaan Allah S.W.T. dan dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik. I love you Bapak, and I miss you Bapak!

To all my fellow friends, sentiasalah hargai bapa (and ur mom of course) anda dan sentiasalah berusaha ke arah menjadi anak yang soleh insyaAllah.

With lots of love,
Your eldest son,
Abdullah.

p/s: Mintak ibu & bapak doakan kecemerlangan Abdullah dalam final exam yang mendatang, jzkk ^_^

Ayuh Bersama-sama Ringankan Beban Mereka

Seperti mana yang telah kita maklum, beberapa sahabat seperjuangan kita di Kaherah telah mengalami kemalangan. Berita lanjut di sini.

Dikhabarkan jumlah kerugian yang ditanggung oleh mereka adalah sebanyak LE 25 000, oleh itu, ayuhlah sahabat2 sekalian, atas dasar ukhuwah Islamiah, sama-sama kita bantu mereka, moga2 sedikit usaha kita ini dikira sbg amal soleh di sisiNya.

Bagi yang ingin menghulurkan sumbangan melalui saluran Unit Kebajikan PERUBATAN Cawangan Iskandariah, boleh lah mengisi tabung2 yang akan diedarkan atau menghubungi nama2 berikut:

1. Mohd. Saufi (Tahun 3)
2. Faizatul Izzati (Tahun 3)
3. Aslam, Husna, dan Siti Nur Bayani (Tahun 3)
4. Shazwan, Hazimah dan Nur Hafizah (Tahun 2)
5. Abdul Hafiz, Siti Aisyah dan Nurul Amira (Tahun 1, yg asrama bagi wakil aras anda)
   

Untuk muhafazah lain, sila hubungi AJK Kebajikan PERUBATAN muhafazah masing2, rasanya semua dh mula buat kutipan.

Bagi yang ingin menyumbang melalui saluran Biro Dakwah & Kebajikan ISMA-Mesir, boleh hubungi Ust. Mohd. Suhail b. Mohd. Sufian (016-4961482) atau Ustazah Nurul Fahimah Muda (010-0931135) bagi cawangan Iskandariah. Untuk maklumat lanjut dan contact person muhafazah lain, leh visit Laman Web ISMA-Mesir.

Bagi yang di Malaysia, boleh berikan sumbangan terus ke akaun HSBC Mohamad Saif bin Jamaluddin (Beliau merupakan salah seorang drpd pelajar yang terlibat dalam kemalangan tersebut) bernombor 311-133-524-025.

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. daripada Nabi SAW, Baginda telah bersabda(atau mafhumnya):
"Barangsiapa yang melepaskan seorang mukmin daripada satu kesusahan daripada kesusahan-kesusahan dunia, nescaya Allah akan melepaskannya daripada satu kesusahan daripada kesusahan-kesusahan Qiamat. Barangsiapa yang mempermudahkan bagi orang susah, nescaya Allah akan mempermudahkan baginya di dunia dan di akhirat. Barangsiapa yang menutup ke'aiban seorang muslim, nescaya Allah akan menutup ke'aibannya di dunia dan akhirat. Allah sentiasa bersedia menolong hambaNya selagi mana dia suka menolong saudaranya..."

Ayuh sama-sama menyumbang, sekian, wallahu'alam.

Satu Demi Satu Aku Kena...

Kena apa??? Korang tau ker aku kena apa yang satu demi satu tu? Haa, meh sini aku nak habaq mai kat hangpa semua, ni kisahnya:

Kena 1
Allah mengilhamkan pada aku utk menulis tentang kematian, supaya aku sendiri khasnya, dan umumnya kawan2 tersayang yang baca blog ni diperingatkan tentang kematian. Maka aku pun bertindak menulis entry yang bertajuk When I Write About Death!.

Kena 2
Aku dapat berita dari Ustaz2 kat Mandarah yang Ust. Wan Salimi, bekas ketua UMI dah meninggal dunia. Aku sempat kenal arwah masa aku 1st year dulu. Kebetulan pulak dia mentor SC Muaz, dia siap penah dtg wat sc kat rumah aku. Beliau meninggal sebab complication treatment for skull replacement.

Kena 3
Aku baca paper, 12 orang terkorban dalam serangan masa solat isya' kat masjid Narathiwat, Selatan Thai. Terus aku teringat lawatan sambil belajar SMAI yang aku ikut masa Form 2@3 (aku x igt) ke sana. Aku masih ingat layanan yang amat baik yang diterima drpd ustaz2 kat masjid dan sekolah pondok kat Pattani, Yala dan Narathiwat. Moga2 mereka mendapat syahid dan moga2 Allah mengazab pengganas2 celaka itu.

Kena 4
Aku dapat berita 5 org sahabat2 drpd Cairo U accident, 2 org cedera ringan, 2 org koma dan sorang meninggal dunia. Berita ni amat mengejutkan sbb diorang semua sebaya aku jer, x sangka Allah panggil Allahyarham Ammar dalam usia yang masih muda, moga beliau ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg soleh. Walaupun antara 5 orang tu aku cuma knal Saif jer (yang lain maybe kenal muka tapi xtau nama), tetapi aku tetap merasai pemergian arwah. Aku doakan2 kwn2 yg lain yg masih cedera dan traumatized cepat sembuh iAllah.

"Allahummaghfirlahum, warhamhum, wa'aafihim wa'fu-'anhum."

Kena 6
Aku baca news kat Yahoo, sekali aku terbaca yg WHO dh isytihar Swine Flu by H1N1 virus dah reached phase 6 which mean it is a true pandemic. Dah beratus org mati due to this pandemic, once upon a time ago, the same pandemic caused millions of death, semoga takkan berulang lagi. Aku berdoa moga2 aku, keluarga, rakan-rakan, dan seluruh umat Islam dilindungi dari wabak ni.

Ya...ni la yang aku kena, kena apa? Kena peringatan drpd Allah S.W.T. dan aku nak kongsi peringatan2 ni dengan korang. Sangat benarlah firmanNya dalam Surah Aali 'Imran, ayat 185, yang bermaksud: "Tiap-tiap yang bernyawa akan merasai mati, dan bahawasanya pada hari kiamat sahajalah akan disempurnakan balasan kamu. Ketika itu sesiapa yang dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke syurga maka sesungguhnya ia telah berjaya. Dan (ingatlah bahawa) kehidupan di dunia ini (meliputi segala kemewahannya dan pangkat kebesarannya) tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan bagi orang-orang yang terpedaya. "


Kita boleh mati dalam apa jua cara, di mana sahaja kita berada dan pada bila-bila masa sahaja. Moga-moga Allah menggolongkan kita di antara orang-orang yang mempunyai persediaan yang cukup sebelum menjadi mayat dan mati dalam Iman. Secara ringkasnya, moga kita semua tergolong dalam golongan yang mendapat 'husnul khatimah' dan dijauhkan sejauh-jauhnya daripada 'suu-ul khatimah' insyaAllah. Ameen Ya Rabb!

Ayuh sama-sama kita muhasabah diri kita and may Allah watch over all of us.

Malam Motivasi & Solat Hajat Alex

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Iklan khas buat jejaka-jejaka Alex:

Malam Motivasi & Solat Hajat bersempena dengan peperiksaan akhir semester Julai ini.

Tarikh: 12 Jun 2009 (Jumaat mlm Sabtu)

Tempat: Asrama MARA Iskandariah

Masa: 8.00 mlm (Maghrib berjemaah di sana)

Anjuran Bersama: MARA-Mesir dan ISMA-Mesir

Jamuan ringan disediakan insyaAllah.

Marilah ramai2 kita menghadirkan diri ke majlis ini untuk sama-sama mendengar sedikit motivasi daripada penceramah jemputan dan sama-sama menunaikan solat hajat dan berdoa moga-moga Allah S.W.T. akan mempermudahkan dan mengurniakan kecemerlangan dalam peperiksaan akhir semester Julai ini insyaAllah.

Datang jangan tak datang!!! Sebarkan pada rakan-rakan yang lain!

New Hobby

Ok, this one gonna be a short entry. In case you haven't noticed, I just created my own Flickr account. You can see the thumbnails at the side bar of my blog. Feel free to visit it at http://www.flickr.com/photos/neo-rantissi/

Comments and critics are very much appreciated, especially from you guys who have started photography long before me. Just consider photography as my new hobby, ouh, and speaking of hobby, I miss those days during my MRSM life, archery, i really loved it and i still love it. I'm not sure how far I'll go in photography, pray that I'll continue to have the passion and the will to learn, and most importantly, the ability to manage my time more wisely insyaAllah.

May this hobby become a great part of my life as archery did insyaAllah.

When I Write About Death!

Story 1
It happened when I was around standard 3 if i were not mistaken, or was it standard 2? I was waiting for my mom to withdraw her money from the ATM machine while waving to my dad and brothers in the car which was situated on the other side of the street. Suddenly I decided to go to the car without waiting for my mom. Impatiently, I did not look to the right and left and run towards the car merrily, when suddenly I heard a screeching sound, it was a car! Luckily the driver manage to brake just before hitting me. My hands was already on the bonnet. Quickly my mom apologise to the man and when i got into the car my father was very mad. I wonder what if Allah decided to take my life during that time, I'll go to heaven, but He knows best.

Story 2
Well this one is not really a single story, it happened for a few times I guess. Almost got hit while crossing the streets in Egypt. There was times when the 'tramco' were only few inches from me! Alhamdulillah, Allah protected me until today! Here in Egypt, I also has attended lots of Janazah Prayers, especially in Gami' Ibrahim in Azarita. For me, they are reminders from Allah, reminders about death!

Story 3
I was walking to cross the tram's railway and for an unknown reason, it was like there's nothing in my mind, I was feeling blur when suddenly I heard the sound of the tram's loud horn which woke me up, the driver was glaring at me with the 'Do you want to die???' face! I was a few steps away from the railway but i guess the driver saw me walking with no intention of stopping. Thanks to Allah again and to the driver who warn me!

Story 4
I was riding the motorcycle (which has been stolen, poor din) with Din to attend an oral exam when we suddenly fell down at a u-turn, luckily there was no car behind us. I wonder what would happen if there was a car right behind us, and the car hit us and the bike after we fell, this blog would never exist I guess and Din would never become the Chairman for PCI.

Story 5
This one is not about me, but it is about my friend who was hit by a bus while riding a motorcycle on North-South Highway in Gurun, Kedah. Don't worry though, he's still alive and kicking, alhamdulillah! I was the first person to be allowed to visit him in the High Dependency Ward after his family, his father told the nurse that i was his bro. I still remember how i rush to the hospital after receiving a call from my mom telling me that the hospital need a blood donor for him, i was driving my dad's Toyota Unser up to 140km/h, with the emergency light turned on, I even broke through some red traffic lights. I thought he needed a fresh blood transfusion, but when I arrived, the hospital actually need a blood donor to replace the blood in the blood bank, what a relief that I didn't hit anything while rushing to the hospital, Alhamdulillah. Now that friend of mine has recovered completely, FYI, he suffered from broken ribs, hip bone and femur, perforated lung, injured spleen, injured kidney and few stitches on his head, Alhamdulillah, Allah saved him from death.

Story 6
This is the last story, i hope you are not bored, it is about me receiving the news of other's death. The most painful one would be in Nov 2006 when i received the news that Allahyarhamah Mawaddah has passed away, she was my closest sister. Still remember how when my mom was not available or busy with my little brother, I would be the only one that she wanted to feed her medicines, and to accompany her when she wanted to sleep. May Allah let us meet again in His heaven insyaAllah. My deary Iffah Diyana now really reminds my family about her and all of us are really glad to have her, thank you Allah!

What actually I want to share?
It's simple actually, we could never predict when we are going to die exactly. Even if you got a terminal stage cancer, still, the prognosis is not 100% accurate. Most people, when they think about death, they would think about how, when, and where. Example: "I hope I'll die while sleeping, on Friday, during Ramadhan, in Makkah." It's not wrong to think about all these, but more importantly, you must think how much have you PREPARE YOURSELF??? If you die now, where will you go? Heaven or Hell? Remember my friends, you might say that we're still young and we can perform Taubah when we're old, but what if you die tomorrow???
Death could come at any time, anywhere, and in any way that Allah wants. So we must always be prepared!

Thank you for your time, may Allah makes us among the people who prepare themselves well before the meeting with the Death Angel (Izrail).

Post Exam Syndrome and 1st Tag

Mid-term exam dah abes...wahaha, tengah tertekan sebenarnya ni, exam tadi sangat susah, leh tahan aku main tembak-tembak tadi, padan muka diri senirik, lesson learnt! Time to execute final recovery plan, struggle untuk final sem utk cover balik markah yg lost dlm mid-term, target = semua paper 95% and above, hahaha! Really hope i can utilise this one and only month before the final exam WISELY! Except for today, xnak study, hehehe, nk release tension kot, mender la aku nak buat hari ni???

Apa-apa pun alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal. Susah mcm mana pun exam tu, walau apa jua tekanan yang dirasai, yang paling penting ialah belajar dari kesilapan lalu, kalau tak amik pengajaran, sampai ke sudah takleh improve diri sendiri. Kesusahan ini juga kukira sebagai satu bentuk peringatan daripada Allah S.W.T. untuk diri ini. To ibu and bapak, I'm very sorry, insyaAllah I'll do better in the final. Adeii, berapa kali dh cakap nk berubah ni, tapi x jalan gak, huhu. Really hope the result for this sem gonna be better than the last one.

Bak kata sorang member, "Relaks laa, baru mid-term, final ada lagi..." I guess the time for relax is totally over, although i actually love the quote 'Study biar lepak, result biar gempak!' Study memang dah lepak dah, result jer yang tak gempak, hahaha. Teringat kata-kata Warouq, "Nak belajar medic, tapi xnak jadi 'budak medic'." Mungkin aku masih belum cukup menghayati istilah 'budak medic' tu kot, wohoo! Memetik kata-kata ibuku yg terchenta, "Dah tau kursus awk tu susah and banyak nk kna cover, awat (maksudnya = kenapa) x insaf2???" Insaf la zainal ooi...dah dah la tu.

Moving to my 2nd agenda, I've been tagged by burung antu, well it's my first tag, and since I had enough medical related questions today, I think I'll just answer these questions for fun ^_^:

01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?
Ermm...I wonder how, I wonder why, yesterday you show me the blue-blue sky...hahaha
What ex??? (buat-buat tak paham)

[02] Have you bored with this blogging stuff?
Tak penah plak, i guess i kinda like it since for me sharing is caring and blogging is one way for sharing your thought with others. tapi kalau orang lain bored dgn blog aku tu, nasib laa, haha.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

Romance movie??? What's that? Can't even remember the last one i watched, unless you want to count The Ultimate Gift and August Rush as romance movies, then they are a must watch.

[04] How many times have you honestly fallen deeply in love?..

how deep is deeply??? wait till i get married lah!

[05] What’s your current problem?
Time management and prioritizing! "Demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian!" Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami keberkatan masa dan buanglah kemalasan dan kelalaian dari hati-hati kami.

[06] Have you ever had your heart broken?
You don't call it 'life' if there is no 'heartbreak'. Setiap manusia pasti pernah melaluinya dalam tafsiran yang berbeza.

[07] Had a Long Distance Relationship?
Of course laa, my family in Malaysia, my friends all around the globe, kan Hubungan Jarak Jauh tu???

[08] Do you believe the statement, once a cheater always a cheater?

I believe in forgiveness, but once someone cheat me, I'm going to be careful around him/her because a good Muslim would not fall in the same hole twice! But one thing for sure, if you are a good Muslim, you won't cheat.

[09] How many kids do you want to have?

My favourite number is 7, so seven la kot. Tapi apa jua kurniaan Allah di masa akan datang, akan kuterima dgn penuh redha dan tanggungjawab insyaAllah kerana setiap zuriat itu merupakan rezki dan amanah dariNya, x gitu?

[10] Whats your favorite color??
Green, Red, Black, and Purple. My psychology personality colour test when I was in high school said my personality is green!

[11]Where do you shop the most?
Fathalla Gomla Market and Carrefour I guess.

[12] Do you believe in love at first sight?
Can it really happen just after a first sight??? Don't think so, gonna need multiple sights and point of views, haha.

[13] Would you kiss the last person you kissed?

Of course la, my mom, my dad, my little brothers and sisters esp Iffah Diyana, dah banyak dah dia kasi flying kiss through webcam tuh!

[14] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?

Since I went to kindergarten i guess. "Mereka pakai tudung, saya pakai kopiah, kenapa ek?"

[15] Are you happy with your love situation?

Yup! Happy with all the love from my family and friends!

[16] Do you know someone who likes you?

If you mean people who are happy to be my friends, then yes i do!

[17] Do you like anyone?

All my good friends lah!

[18] what are your current mode?

:: Kecewa dgn exam mid-term punya mode ::

[19]who are going to be tagged by you?
Sapa-sapa yang baca benda alah ni, dan rasa nak buat, silakan.

[20]why they're tagged??
Sebab diorang baca benda alah ni dan diorang rajen mcm aku nak jawab soalan2 yang tah apa2 semua ni, wohoo!

Semoga burung antu berpuas ati dgn jawapan-jawapan saya di atas.

Thank you for reading, have a nice day.